Wok Wednesday at Pei Wei

Keeping in real with…

Teriyaki stir fried brown rice, veggies and tofu, veggie spring rolls and Mandarin iced tea.

Nothing like a veggie Good veggie night from Arizona after a long day at work. Enjoy. -kia


TJ’s Wednesday Gratitude – Event

Here’s a wonderful new weekly event to get on-board with from TJ, the blogger who brings us the Household Haiku Challenge. It’s called Wednesday Gratitude. I’ll let him expound.

Why not spend a minute or two and focus on a few things that are worth being thankful for today?…

…Share in the comments either through a link to a post you write or simply put it down in the comment section (press the little black speech bubble to access)

Here are my three things I’m grateful for this morning.

  1. Family: I love my family. Years and even decades of wasted time and opportunities to cherish and cultivate relationship with those no longer with us have taught me to never take for granted the Family I still have with me.
  2. Life: The recent bombings overseas have reminded me this week that our lives are fragile, short and can quickly be ended without notice, cause or even good reason. I’m grateful for my own life and the lives of those around me.
  3. Work: I’m thankful to have work that I love and that helps people on a daily basis. What no do matters to real people with real families like mine in real need. There is never a day where I go to work that I hate showing up.

I’m an extremely blessed man to have such things to be grateful for this Wednesday. How about you? Why not share in the comments below and play along with TJ by making a post of your own and linking? 

Have a great day of Wednesday Gratitude. -kia

My Journey pt 5: Choosing Blindness… Really?

Is it really that difficult to Honestly Doubt?
eyes shut edit

I recently read a post from a Christian Blog I follow that seemed to intimate, at least in part, that Christians who start to doubt the Faith they once held dear may do so for somewhat ‘less’ than honest and honorable reasons. Take a look…

“The professor didn’t respond with any of the proofs of God’s existence. He didn’t begin to expound on how Christianity was a rational and obvious belief for any man willing to seriously consider the issue. He could have, but he didn’t. There was a deeper issue and this professor, led by the wisdom of God, cut right through to the heart of the matter like a hot knife through butter. He simply asked, “So, how long have you been sleeping with your girlfriend?””

He ‘could have’ given ‘proofs’ or ‘rational and obvious’ reasons…

So, in the mind of this blogger, possibly the main reason people start to doubt or question their Christian faith is, or at least the only one she gives… “You’ve started doubting God because you have had to.” People, at least the young person in this story, ‘has to’ doubt or question god to justify behavior or feelings that the biblical god calls ‘sinful’.

“You just want to Sin”

As I’ve posted before, and others have posted more eloquently than I on Blogs and YouTube Videos, sin was the very LAST thing we were thinking of when we started questioning the Truth Claims and Morality of what we have believed and held dear as Gospel Truth for the best years of our lives, even decades in my case. Most of us ‘Deconverts’ would have given our right eyes… and our left as well… to find some kind of… ANY amount of ‘Justification’ for continuing to Believe that

  • Jesus is our Savior and Lord,
  • that the Bible is God’s infallible and unassailable Word,

and that the God of the Bible is not only contained as Story and Myth ‘historically’ passed down thru generations of followers, but is still Historically Accurate and archaeologically provable, established Fact.

It just wasn’t True

Speaking mostly for myself and by extension possibly the thousands or millions of people who have ‘Deconverted’ and walked away from the Church, Christianity, Christ Himself… Sin and Debauchery, Licence and Moral Relativism were THE LAST things we wanted to find at the end of our searches. My wife and I didn’t want to know, didn’t want to believe and didn’t want to ‘Deconvert’ or to use the more Christian term… Apostatize from Jesus after decades of serving, loving and actively sharing the “Love of Jesus” with family, friends and people around us for decades as Disciples/Followers of the Gospel. Far from Willful Blindness, we tried to Blind ourselves to the new information and cling to Jesus “By Faith Alone” when historical, archaeological and textual evidence started mounting up against our “Faith once delivered to the Saints”.

Blindness is when you Cover your eyes NOT to See

You see, we tried to “Choose blindness” but just couldn’t. We weren’t trying to justify our sin. We lived as sinless and free from worldly entrapments as just about any couple we’ve ever met.  It wasn’t away from the moral requirements of God and Jesus that we ran, but towards the Evidence that the Professor in the story said he could have offered… but didn’t. Instead, like many Preachers, Teachers and Defenders of the Faith, he chose to Attack the Questioner and his Morality rather than simply answer his questions honestly to the best of his ability.

The reason he did so, as all of us now “Deconverted” former Christians know all too well, is that there are no Good or Honest answers to the problems with Christian Faith. Christian Apologetics, especially Internet Apologetics, is far more about keeping the Faithful locked inside the walls with whatever ‘answers’ are good enough to ‘do the job’ than inviting people inside the doors by honestly answering skeptics and questioners.  Some ‘choose blindness’ by refusing to ask real questions and refusing to hear real answers. Others ‘ensure blindness’ for others by keeping them from doing so.

My hope is that BJ from the The River Walk is neither of these but instead becomes “not just a hearer only” of the stories and evidences that we Deconverts offer, but a “Doer also”. Don’t take our word for it. Search, read, listen, and Think for Yourself.

  • Please, Stop assuming that Deconverts choose blindness for Sin.
  • Stop “Choosing Blindness” yourself by refusing to self educate.
  • and Stop allowing others to Choose it for you.

Peace. -KIA

“The Salem Witchcraft Argument Against The Resurrection Of Jesus” and WordPress Blog fraud in the name of defending Jesus.

Oh james… adding things to my comments again that I didn’t write? Caught you didn’t i, you dishonest fuck. My last comment to him on his post…


James, you realize that you are perpetrating a fraud in creating comments for me that I haven’t said and editing comments to say what I haven’t?

Fraud, buddy. I’m copying these to forward to wordpress. 


April 23, 2017 • 9:56 am

There is a wonderful video I once watched on the Resurrection of jesus and evidences of real witchcraft in Salem Massachusetts. I’ll have to find it again and create a post for you James.
Thx again for the writing prompt James, (((this next bit is what james added. It was not in my original comment))) my readers and I will have a great time ridiculing you and your idiotic beliefs I’m sure, lol.


Reply ↓

And he just created THIS one whole cloth… I did not write it 

April 23, 2017 • 1:13 pm

Why aren’t you replying to my comments you stupid fuck? Watch the video I posted yet?
Nah, probably not, why would you when you are afraid of the truth?


*** I did not post that comment at all on James’s blog. He made it up whole cloth as if I said it, attached my IP address and email address that he had in the comments section of his administration, and CREATED what he wanted others to think I had said. ***

Do you all realize what james just did? James just ghosted my Identity in his comments section to say what I didn’t say… Do you realize the inherent danger involved in someone doing that? Stealing your identity to say what he wants you to say? 

Could he not have me say threats of violence and racist epithets? Could he not have me say things that have REAL WORLD legal implications for me and my family? 

This is as scary as it gets

  • It’s one thing to moderate and block someone from commenting on your posts. That is ubiquitous on Christian blogs claiming to be apologetics sites for discussion, answers and free exchange of ideas… like James claims for his.
  • It’s another to edit out parts of comments that you don’t want to be seen, inserting your own commentary as to why you are doing it. CS is pretty famous for this as well as some others.
  • It’s another thing COMPLETELY to edit and ADD words and sentences to other people’s comments that they did not say, making it seem like they are saying what they did not say. 

But you’ve entered a whole new genre of crazy and legally questionable grounds when you actually CREATE WHOLE CLOTH comments that the other person did not say, in order to fraudulently put words in their mouths and paint them they way you want to portray them in a public space. 

You could very easily make them say ‘virtually’ (pun intended) ANYTHING you want them to, even legally actionable and dangerous things. This is what WordPress Internet Apologetics Blogs are down to “in the name of Jesus” to defend their Faith.

Dishonesty, Identity Theft and Fraud in the Name of Christ. And if I hadn’t been checking on my comments that were in moderation over there, I never would have known. 

Of course, now he’s erased all previous comments trying to cover his tracks. Thank god for copy and paste. I have the evidence, James you fucking…! (Word edited out by kia. 6/9/17)

(((Alright, I should not have called him a Moron. My apologies and I’m removing the Word from my original post

and this Repost. -kia)))

Christians… is THIS who you want representing YOU online? Is THIS who you want representing the Jesus you love, serve and follow? Then fight back against the very worst of the Amateur Internet Apologists on the WordPress Blogosphere. Tell them to STOP these activities immediately.


Tie Tuesday: Books and Reading edition

Sorry for the low light pic this morning. It’s 330a here at the kia homestead and The Wife ™ is stickies in the front room. She’s been unable to lay down due to pain from what the doctor said was pneumonia and the over straining of her chest muscles from coughing. 

Those of you who still pray, it would be appreciated. Those of you who don’t, good vibes and thoughts of well wishes will suffice. In the end, they are both probably the same and yield the same result anyway. 

I’ll have to save the story matching the tie for later, I have to get to work. My wife will be home resting and trying to get better with the antibiotics and kicked up Aleve for the pain. Have a wonderful day.


Xtian HaiKu: “Arizona Summer”

Arizona Summer

Dirt, stubble and hay
Where once was green verdant grass,
Seasons change quickly.


Story is from this Year’s Struggle, 2016

It’s the end of May here in the Valley of the Sun. Almost gone are the cool mornings that drift into lovely days and back into cool nights meant for relaxing on the back porch with a good book and a nice glass of Red or White.

That’s could be why I’m so Blue these days. Anticipating the hot summer sun baking everything around me that isn’t protected from it’s “Love” with 115-120 degree temperatures. It’s right around the Start of June here in Arizona that I start praying for the Beginning of October and the End of our Perennial Desert Purgatory.

I used to tell the Joke of the two Seminary Grads, fresh out of school and starting their Ministry Careers in two different States, one in Hawaii the other in Scottsdale Arizona. Despondent to his Hawaiian friend over the phone one day of his lack of converts,  the Arizona chum complained that during the rest of the year, the weather was so good and pleasant that when he preached on Heaven, no one was enticed and when he preached on Hell, since they all had experienced the Arizona Summers, no one was afraid.

Satan Summers at the Biltmore, you know -KIA

May the Fourth be With You

Hey, it’s three of clock in the morning and I have to go to work. This is way better than I could come up with at the moment. Thank you. Enjoy the Day.-kia

Jodi L. Milner, Author

It’s May 4th and to all those Star Wars fans out there that’s a cause for celebration. To celebrate here, I’m sharing some of my favorite Star Wars memes!




Have a favorite that I missed? Add it in the comments!

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