Is it really that difficult to Honestly Doubt?
I recently read a post from a Christian Blog I follow that seemed to intimate, at least in part, that Christians who start to doubt the Faith they once held dear may do so for somewhat ‘less’ than honest and honorable reasons. Take a look…
“The professor didn’t respond with any of the proofs of God’s existence. He didn’t begin to expound on how Christianity was a rational and obvious belief for any man willing to seriously consider the issue. He could have, but he didn’t. There was a deeper issue and this professor, led by the wisdom of God, cut right through to the heart of the matter like a hot knife through butter. He simply asked, “So, how long have you been sleeping with your girlfriend?””
He ‘could have’ given ‘proofs’ or ‘rational and obvious’ reasons…
So, in the mind of this blogger, possibly the main reason people start to doubt or question their Christian faith is, or at least the only one she gives… “You’ve started doubting God because you have had to.” People, at least the young person in this story, ‘has to’ doubt or question god to justify behavior or feelings that the biblical god calls ‘sinful’.
“You just want to Sin”
As I’ve posted before, and others have posted more eloquently than I on Blogs and YouTube Videos, sin was the very LAST thing we were thinking of when we started questioning the Truth Claims and Morality of what we have believed and held dear as Gospel Truth for the best years of our lives, even decades in my case. Most of us ‘Deconverts’ would have given our right eyes… and our left as well… to find some kind of… ANY amount of ‘Justification’ for continuing to Believe that
- Jesus is our Savior and Lord,
- that the Bible is God’s infallible and unassailable Word,
and that the God of the Bible is not only contained as Story and Myth ‘historically’ passed down thru generations of followers, but is still Historically Accurate and archaeologically provable, established Fact.
It just wasn’t True
Speaking mostly for myself and by extension possibly the thousands or millions of people who have ‘Deconverted’ and walked away from the Church, Christianity, Christ Himself… Sin and Debauchery, Licence and Moral Relativism were THE LAST things we wanted to find at the end of our searches. My wife and I didn’t want to know, didn’t want to believe and didn’t want to ‘Deconvert’ or to use the more Christian term… Apostatize from Jesus after decades of serving, loving and actively sharing the “Love of Jesus” with family, friends and people around us for decades as Disciples/Followers of the Gospel. Far from Willful Blindness, we tried to Blind ourselves to the new information and cling to Jesus “By Faith Alone” when historical, archaeological and textual evidence started mounting up against our “Faith once delivered to the Saints”.
Blindness is when you Cover your eyes NOT to See
You see, we tried to “Choose blindness” but just couldn’t. We weren’t trying to justify our sin. We lived as sinless and free from worldly entrapments as just about any couple we’ve ever met. It wasn’t away from the moral requirements of God and Jesus that we ran, but towards the Evidence that the Professor in the story said he could have offered… but didn’t. Instead, like many Preachers, Teachers and Defenders of the Faith, he chose to Attack the Questioner and his Morality rather than simply answer his questions honestly to the best of his ability.
The reason he did so, as all of us now “Deconverted” former Christians know all too well, is that there are no Good or Honest answers to the problems with Christian Faith. Christian Apologetics, especially Internet Apologetics, is far more about keeping the Faithful locked inside the walls with whatever ‘answers’ are good enough to ‘do the job’ than inviting people inside the doors by honestly answering skeptics and questioners. Some ‘choose blindness’ by refusing to ask real questions and refusing to hear real answers. Others ‘ensure blindness’ for others by keeping them from doing so.
My hope is that BJ from the The River Walk is neither of these but instead becomes “not just a hearer only” of the stories and evidences that we Deconverts offer, but a “Doer also”. Don’t take our word for it. Search, read, listen, and Think for Yourself.
- Please, Stop assuming that Deconverts choose blindness for Sin.
- Stop “Choosing Blindness” yourself by refusing to self educate.
- and Stop allowing others to Choose it for you.